Ihsan Nysrock

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2009-04-27T19:04:00.001-07:00

Who The Fuck Cares About You?

I'm The Devil I Love Metal

2009-04-27T18:42:00.000-07:00

So..what is it about being a metalhead that is so fucking good?

Is it about the music?the aggression?The feeling of being on top of everything?
The nice feeling of having the hair on the back of your neck stand everytime you play metal out loud.Or being in the world of your own when you're shredding on your guitar?The confidence of going through every shit in life as long you got metal with you?Or the brothers you have around you and you know you can count on them no matter what?standing proud having the time of your life with 10000 other metalheads in a concert?

If you ask me..thats why i'm a fucking straight to the fucking face metalhead..

what about you?

I'm A Metalhead

2009-04-22T22:59:00.000-07:00

I was born a metalhead..
i eat metal..
i drink metal..
First thing i listen to when i wake up is iron maiden
As a metalhead i will forever raise my head up high
i need metal in my life just like an eagle needs to fly
i respect all my true metal brothers around the world
but for those bunch of poser out there...we dont fucking need you..
i doesnt matter if i have been listening to iron maiden way since before your time and you've just started yesterday..stand the fuck up and fight for metal that is fucking reaL!

Ahakz!

2009-04-20T19:58:00.000-07:00

I can turn an old lady into a bapoK!!!

school is fun..im enjoying it alot..but still need to get hold of my finances.Sitting in class for hours still need getting use to.its nt a bad school tho..tho some people are an eyesore...but..fuck em..im here to study..get good grades and a fucking cert and fuck off..Somehow..i still miss ite yishun..ahhhh...those were the good old days

....

2009-04-08T02:19:00.001-07:00

ORD LOH

I'm fucking free and fucking back to fucking kill motherfuckers!!!

so...

2009-03-02T21:24:00.001-08:00

i havent been blogging for sometime due to some technical difficulties and ive been auite busy with school interviews and stuff..ORD LOH!!!

anyway..lets start the bullshit.

First thing first if any of you got any fucking problem about about or any of my mates do say it straight to our faces instead of hiding in some jamming studios and gay-ishly talk about it.We can settle it peacefully or we can get it done with my way.

Secondly..godfucking dammit man..get a fucking life..or wait..you do..but get a fucking "real" life instead of some fantasy which just annoys the shit out of everybody even though they got fuck nothing to do with you.you're just fucking making a fucking fool out of your fucking self.

Third..i'm fucking am still an angry and hateful person.there still loads of bastards out there that i still need to deal with.

Fourth...fuck yourself..if you fucking think you're everything..you're wrong..i'm coming to get you.i'm fucking coming to make your fucking life a living hell..yea..blog about it soon and tell the whole bloody fucking world.

I love the word "fuck".i love having fuck in every of my fucking sentence.so fuck you..fuck is a word that can be use in every way..so..make a best out of it..fucking fuckface bastards..

2009-01-26T03:43:00.000-08:00

So..i had this conversation with a friend while doing my duty on chinese new year eve..
It happen after he saw a "kakak" and ran away and left his camp pass at the exact spot where he saw her and end up i havta go back there alone to get it for him.You bloody pussy.I wont let you forget it ass...lol!!

We were talking about the nazis,religion,world war II blablabla..Then some how the topic about life after ORD somehow came out.So he asked what am i gonna do after i fuck off from the army.My answer of course..go back to school.Then..It struck me...by the time i'm really done with school..i'll be 23..will i get a job..will it be good enough..do i wanna be a 23 year old who ask money from mommy.

Its not that i dont have my future planned.But its the thought of if i'll ever be able to really achieve what i want in life.I dont wanna live in hardship no more.I wanna be comfortable..i wanna have money..i wanna have power.The saying "money doesnt make the world goes round" is bullshit.Money is everything.

But with a population of over 4 million people in Singapore..is there enough "good" jobs out there for me in the future.Will i ever survive this dog eat dog world.

Will i ever be able to become the envy of every single mother fucker that has put me down?Will i ever make everyone that has ever left me regret leaving me.Will i ever be able to let my future family have a fucking comfortable life?God dammit..i'm gonna have to start buying TOTO again...

And Nurul<3..No more mood swings tau!Sorry for being late lah!Tertido siol!penat sak duty.Guard comd tak buat kerja..semua "super RP" yang buat..puki nye muckle.And today..even though we ran out of plans and because of CNY we didnt get to shop/window shop and didnt wanna go far cause its getting late and you're tired..and i'm tired..I had fun."CNY discount~60% off~!"LOL
I'm gonna make you drink the milk tea again :P.

At First I Fell In Love With That Sweet Pretty Face
When I Get To Know You Better..I Fell In Love With You..

I Love You Nurul<3

2009-01-20T07:10:00.000-08:00

I'm still a hateful,angry,careless,proud,egoistic motherfucker who still have issues with everything everywhere everytime.

I got into a fight with my dad cause i was pissed he move my stuff to somewhere i couldnt find em and he's pissed at me cause i told a couple from India who might be potential buyers of my house to go back to India and plant rice instead.

I'm pissed at one of my RP cause he talk to much.

I'm pissed at the government for making me pay a $500 fine.

I'm pissed at those bastards who tried to kill me.

I'm pissed at the bastard who dares to interfered in my personal life instead of taking care of his handicap sister.

I'm pissed at the whore who is making my life difficult.

I'm fucking pissed at every single thing there is out there.

I'm proud of making you bastards pissed cause i walked around like nothing's bothering me even though half of you people got a fucking problem with me.

Come get me you fucking son of a bitches.Feel my fucking wrath.For i am ihsan nysrock!

2009-01-18T06:19:00.000-08:00

I will love you,baby....Always
And I'll be there forever and a day
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you.....Always

The Gods Made Heavy Metal

2009-01-18T00:08:00.001-08:00

Being a metalhead for almost my entire eyes i know there will be insults thrown at me like.."metalhead?grow up ah.."..takde life sia metal".."what future do you have with metal" and a recent one "what are you fighting for?"<---This is from the stalker cunt.

Let me fight for my music.My life.Being a metalhead..i see the world differently from others.A world which most people out there dont realise what they are getting themselve into.A world we are fighting against every single minute.Being a metalhead doesnt mean you're immatured.ok..i admit we are sometimes "immatured" but among ourselves cause we fucking know when and how to have fun.From my point of view,True metalheads are the most matured and reality accepting people around there is.We dont engage in violence or stupid comments or threats when trouble arouse.Unlike the stalker i'm being "stalked" on at the moment.There wasnt any trouble in the first place..The bastard started it.

For having a life..Metal is our life.Some of our life revolves around metal and for your info..Most metalheads are working hard and some are studying hard for a better future and metal is what keeps us going.It gives us a strong boost of confidence..gives us the power to fight on..gives us the courage and take everything that is being thrown to our faces.Even though some of us may look haggard or rebellious with the long hair or piercings or tattoos or whatever.Most of us have a heart so pure that most of you dont have.

What are we fighting for you ask..well its up to the individual isnt it?For me..i'm always fighting for what is true..what is right and personal freedom cause i know..true freedom can never be obtain(we cant even fucking smoke at life lobbies..what makes u think we can obtain true complete freedom?)

What are you fighting for..thats what the bastard who tries to ruin my relationship ask me.No i didnt answer her cause she doesnt deserve to know.So now my turn to ask..what is she fighting for?Is there even a fight?you already lost before it even started.Im five steps ahead of everything you try to do.Will you ever win the fight of taking away someone personal freedom?Will you ever win the fight if you take someone freedom to love away?NO.You never will.Not with me around.

Does that answer all your question?You can ask more and i can go for days.I'm still around today because of metal.It is my fucking life and forever it will be.You wake up everyday and take a bath or brush your teeth or read the papers and drink tea or coffee.But i wake up everyday and listen to iron maiden..infernal war..slayer..helloween etc to start out my day and it gives me the sense of confidence that i can always fight against everything the world try to throw in my face every single day.

"If metal doesn't give you that overwhelming surge of power, make your hair stand up at the back of your neck, you might never get it. And you know what? That's okay. Because judging by the 40,000 metalheads around me, we're doing just fine without you"

2009-01-17T07:06:00.000-08:00

The night was cooling..
With the wind blowing into your hair..
And i kiss your forehead and tell you i love you..
With the shit we've been through and still are..
I tell you everything will be ok and we'll make it through
With me hugging you and never letting go..
It was beautiful...

Nothing can stop us from being together...
Nothing can stop me from loving you...
Even if it comes to the point where i have to kill..
I will..
Even if it starts a war..
It will be worth it..

Some things are just worth fighting for..

I Love You<3

Battle Royale

2009-01-15T05:44:00.000-08:00

I'm being stalked by 2 siblings who are a bunch of wackos.

Apparantly they know where my grandma's house is...they know which sec sch i come from.Heck..they probably know how many time i shit per day.The best part...one of them is getting help from a guy who she thinks can bring me down.My advice..get someone who i've never beat the crap out of for help next time.

Gosh..this is getting really fun.

Ihsan Nysrock Is Your Fucking God

The Fight

2009-01-14T06:38:00.000-08:00

The biggest fight i'm fighting is the fight for freedom to love,the fight for whats right...a fight worth fighting for.I will not fall nor wil i give up.This is it..I'm ready...

"Not Everything That Is Faced Can Be Change But Nothing Will Change Until It Is Faced"

Assuring

2009-01-12T03:11:00.000-08:00

Sometimes we got tough
Roads a head look kind of rough
And all we had was you and I
We'd pray to God on those cool dark nights
And then we knew that it would be alright
We'd go through hell just to hold each other tight

As long as the world keeps turning
For as long as it's another day
Together forever
We'll stand...
I Love You <3...

2009-01-10T07:40:00.000-08:00

I Had Fun.It Was Beautiful.I Managed To Make You Eat.I Manage To Make Bad Things Good.I Promise I Protect You.And I Did.I Still Will.I Promise I Take Care Of You.And I Did.I Still Will.I Promise To Make You Smile No Matter How Piss,Stress Or Sad You Are.And I Did.I Still Will.Everything Will Be Ok Now.I'll Destroy Everything That Will Try To Harm You.From Now On..There's Nothing For You To Worry About.

I Love You Nurul<3

2009-01-10T07:03:00.000-08:00

Its over...finally i've done my part in the film..and god dammit it was fun.Alot of bloopers tho..i became gay for a while..finally i kill that bastard..lol.It was a fucking hot day..there were like alot of people around looking..i was kinda nervous..but i just wanna get it over and done with.Like before..i didnt memorize the script and like before i did it on the spot and i manage to pull it off.Though i forgot the lines a few times "Yes!i'm crazy!crazy over you!*pause*chaocibai!!!".Syqah was good..she manage to pull off her crying part real well..though me and fezah was laughing our ass of silently.I really think the she should have been the one to kena kill.

And finally he's dead.

The Cast And Crew..Thanks Everyone..I Had Fun!

Well..Thats it for the shoot..for my part that is..we had lunch after that but before i run into some stomach discomfort."Mengalami tekanan taik berpressure tinggi."LOL.Then its time to say goodbye to everyone..I havta go to the gig and meet the rest of the guys and nurul<3.Once again..Thanks to all the cast and crews for making this a hell of a good experience for me.I had lotsa fun and i cant wait to see the film.till then..HAILS!\m/

2009-01-07T04:23:00.000-08:00

"When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue "

Every time I Looked At You..All My Anger Just Fades Away.
All My Fear Disappear When I Saw How Scared You Were..
You're The Only One That I Ever Put Myself Infront Of Something I'm So Afraid Of Just To Protect You.
I Dont Know What You Did But It Feels "Oh So Right.."
Every Time We Talk...You Always Remind Me Of Who I Am Last Time.
I've Never Felt So Calm Before..
I Love You
Thank You For Loving Me....
Nurul<3 010109

why

2009-01-05T04:51:00.000-08:00

Why isnt anyone doing anything as Isreal troops invade the gaza strip?As the death tolls rises to more then 500 including over 80 children..why isnt anyone doing anything..why isnt the UN doing anything?Why are medical help being killed when they're helping the wounded..what happen to the law of armed conflicts?

Isreal should be kicked out from the face of the world..after all..they dont belong anywhere..where they are residing now doesnt belong to them.Why is the US keeping quiet when they're the "police of the world"?Isreal is clearly the "murderer".Why is everyone so afraid to do anything.Why are the just watching while innocents are being killed by those jews.The Nazis should have done a better job by wiping them out.

What if every single muslim country in the world get together and invade Isreal?Will the french,british,US and australia help the jews?

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE UN DOING?!

2009-01-03T07:52:00.000-08:00

Credits To Syq For The Edits

I'll Always Be There To Hold Your Hand And Tell You Everything Will Be Ok...If That Doesnt Work...I'll Beat The Hell Out Of The Problem <3

Achtung!!

2009-01-02T08:17:00.000-08:00

This blog is at times not for the faint-hearted or faggots or pussies.
Entries in this blog may be offensive,influential,angry and damaging to some young minds.The owner of this blog will not be responsible for any murders,self-mutilation,mental problems, or suicide that may happen after visiting this blog.

Read this blog at your own risk.Ihsan Nysrock does not take responsibility for any action made under the influence of this blog

Support war,Start hating.Uphold killings.Go kill yourself

ok..i'm bored

Ihsan Is Perfection

2009-01-01T08:27:00.001-08:00

I Was Bored..So I Wikipedia-ed My Name And I Found This:

ihsan (or Ehsan or Ahsan or احسان) is an Arabic term meaning "perfection" or "excellence," which is related to the word "goodness" (Ara. husn). It is a matter of taking one's inner faith (iman) and showing it in both deed and action, a sense of social responsibility borne from religious convictions. In Islam, Ihsan is the Muslim responsibility to obtain perfection, or excellence, in worship, such that Muslims try to worship God (Arabic Allah) as if they see Him, and although they cannot see Him (due to the belief that Allah is not made of materials), they undoubtedly believe that He is constantly watching over them. That definition comes from the hadith (known as the Hadith of Gabriel) in which Muhammad states, "[Ihsan is] to worship God as though you see Him, and if you cannot see Him, then indeed He sees you." (Al-Bukhari and Al-Muslim).[1]

Ihsan, meaning "to do beautiful things," is one of the three dimensions of the Islamic religion (Ara. ad-din): islam, iman and ihsan. In contrast to the emphases of islam (what one should do) and iman (why one should do), the concept of ihsan is primarily associated with intention. One who "does what is beautiful" is called a muhsin. It is generally held that a person can only achieve true ihsan with the help and guidance of Allah, who governs all things.

Some Islamic scholars explain Ihsan as being the inner dimension of Islam whereas shariah is often described as the outer dimension:

From the preceding discussion it should be clear that not every Muslim is a man or woman of faith (mu'min), but every person of faith is a muslim. Furthermore, a Muslim who believes in all the principles of Islam may not necessarily be a righteous person, a doer of good (muhsin), but a truly good and righteous person is both a muslim and a true person of faith.[2]

Ihsan "constitutes the highest form of worship" (ibadah).[2] It is excellence in work and in social interactions. For example, ihsan includes sincerity during Muslim prayers and being grateful to parents, family, and God.

Ehsan or Ihsan is also a male name among Muslims.

What The Fuck?!!!

Present 09

2009-01-01T07:52:00.001-08:00

When Things Looks Like Its Falling Apart..I Stand Of The Edge,Throw A Finger In The Air And Shout Fuck You..Everything Starts To Fall Into Pieces...

Look At Where I Stand Now.

2009..Prepare For My Fucking Wrath!

The Best Thing That Could Happen As The Year Start<3

To The Rest Of You Bastards...
Stop Caring..Just Kill Yourself..2009 And The Following Years Will Be Fucked Up For You..So Just Put Your Head Into The Noose Or Take The Pill And Sleep Forever.Dont Be A Burden To Anyone.Do Yourself And Everyone Else A Favour.Choose The Way To Kill Yourself.

2009

2008-12-31T08:08:00.000-08:00

2009 cant get any better then this..ive already have plans about what to do for 2009.
Even tho i reach home 30mins before 2009..the rest of the last few hours of 2008 have been memorable..i enjoy every single minute of it..especially with the person i love..
Thanks for making the final hours of 2008 a memorable thing for me..
To khaal,ariffin,ika and nurul<3..you guys fucking rock...HAILS!!
To Faat And Gang..Sorry i didnt stay till the final countdown..i was realli tired..and thanks for the drink..Love you guys!true friends indeed

alot of shit has happen in 2008 for me but im still standing tall and its time to start anew in 2009.With loads of plans for my future..its time for me to work on it.And with her and what happen just now..things are starting to look much better and im ready to face 2009 with gusto.

Yes.I've made up my mind to stay in Singapore after much talk with my mom and uncle.I guess i dont really wanna leave the people i love behind.And with the plans i've made,i ready to pursue it and make a good honest living.I wanna be the best of the best in every aspect.Of the things i do that is.I'm gonna be successful that people will be jealous of me and prove everyone wrong.

And last but not least..Fuck all the people that made me hate them in 2008..Guess what..i still fucking hate you..and i'm not done with you mother fuckers yet..

FYI

2008-12-30T07:47:00.000-08:00

You maybe wondering why there's no metal song in my blog..
well..here's the fucking reason..

would you rather listen to something soothing like lifehouse or some ass-kickin metal from slayer while reading my blog?

your choice

Past And Present

2008-12-30T07:28:00.000-08:00

Past
Chewed up,spit out,kick around,cut,stitched and scarred.Look down upon,Given up on.

Present
Success,Looked up,Prove Cunts wrong,money made,future bright and planned.

"I'll Take The Hit But Not The Fall
I Know No Fear Still Standing Tall"

Thank You

2008-12-28T00:11:00.000-08:00

To All That Came To Welcome To The SlaughterHouse Massacre 2008 Gig..And Bought The Gig T-shirt And Merchandise On Sell..I Would Like To Personally Thank All Of You For Support.All The 80 Gig T-shirt Have Been Sold Out!!!For Mechandise..Those Who Have Reserve The Things You Want Can Text Me For Collection Once You Have The Cash.

This Is A New Era For Singapore Metal.Fuck Posers.Fuck Dumb Kids Who Think They're Right.Fuck Those "Mcm Paham" With A Lil Patches Here And There.Fuck Those Who Cant Tell The Difference Between Which And Which.And Fuck Those Who Are Just Fucking Plain Ignorant.

"If metal doesn't give you that overwhelming surge of power, make your hair stand up at the back of your neck, you might never get it. And you know what? That's okay. Because judging by the 40,000 metalheads around me, we're doing just fine without you"

The Story

2008-12-26T17:25:00.000-08:00

Im helping out with fezah on her project..and if you all already read syq's blog..you'll probably hav been laughing your ass off..yes..i ACTED.LOL..Well..its was fun you mofos!I play zack..a psychopathic Boyfriend..and somehow..i actually really suit the part.=.="

Here's the plot.girl meets boy.the fall in love.but girl already has a psychotic boyfriend who controls and beat her.girl broke up with psychotic boyfriend.psychotic boyfriend not happy.psychotic boyfriend kills the boy.End.

Special Guest Star Ihsan Nysrock

The Guy Who Is Going To Be Kill By Me..Fuck I Cant Wait!!!

The Crew..The One Behind Hor..Fezah

The Girl Who Kene Slap Dunno How Many Times By Me..Best Siol!!!

The Rest Of The Crew.I Keep Calling This Girl Watson Sia.But Wtf..From Now On She's Known As Watson!

And On Goes The Shoot

We Stop A Alot Of Times Not Because Of Wrong Script Or Whatever.But Because Syqah Keep Laughing At Me Cause Apparantly Im So Good That Its Amusing =.="

Syqah Got A Tight Slap From Me For Not Listening To Me.Fun Sia!!She Was Standing..I Slap Her Straight Away She Sit Down Back..Hahaha!!Sorry If The Slap Was Too Hard Syq..Can Hear The "Kepiak!!" Sound In The Video Sia..lol..

Well..Thats Its For Today..Acting Today..SlaughterHouse Massacre Next!!!!!!!!!!
Btw..Syq!!!Sorry Aku Curik Gambar² Ni Dari Blog Kau!!hahaha!!Aku Takde Camera!!Ihsan Nysrock Ripoff peoples blog!!!WeeeeE!!

Sins

2008-12-23T07:29:00.000-08:00

Birth was my first sin, be here,
to cry, with my scream silence tear...

Life was my second sin, just live,
mock this world, my opinions give...

Love was my third sin, to care,
just worship her, how did I dare...

Questioning was my fourth sin, raise doubt,
my mind use, see no reasons when look out...

Rebellion was my fifth sin, my own rules make,
refuse to obey, not orders from others to take...

Arrogance is my sixth sin, to my own sins list,
to think I know, believe my own sins see in life's mist...

I will still have many sins, my own pride I will fall,
I will regret most, hope redemption before death call...

Death will be my last sin, to surrender and die,
just release my life, to darkness and oblivion fly...

i

2008-12-23T06:33:00.000-08:00

i am currently unsure about what the fuck i'm doing.
i don't know what the fuck i've gotten myself into.
i'm completely over my head.
i'm confuse about what the hell i'm doing.
fuck..im confuse about what the hell i'm talking about right now.
Those hours of endless lectures is making me mad.
I'm not amuse by anything amusing..surprisingly.
Its time someone declare a state of emergency.

Ihsan Nysrock

2008-12-23T05:06:00.000-08:00

Will Make You Pay Dearly For The Bulshit You've Pull Cause He's Full Of Shit Too

Stop Hiding!!

2008-12-23T04:28:00.000-08:00

Come Out From Underneath Those Hairy Armpit!

Welcome To The Slaughterhouse Massacre 2008

2008-12-22T06:36:00.000-08:00

Its Finally out!!Welcome To The Slaughterhouse Massacre 2008 Gig T-shirt.
Shirts Will Be On Sale On The Gig Day Itself On The 27 December 2008 At Scape At S$13 A Piece.Stocks And Sizes Are Limited.However,If You Cant Purchase It On The Gig Day Itself,You Can Order It Directly From Me By E-mailing Me At nysrock_christbeheader@hotmail.com With The Following Format:
Name:
Contact number:
Size:
Quantity:

Front

Close Up Of Front

Back

Close Up Of Back

Next Time

2008-12-20T19:32:00.000-08:00

Datang rumah orang..ketuk pintu..beri salam..mak bapak tak ajar per?

The pretender

2008-12-20T09:07:00.000-08:00

Dedicated To A "Special" Someone.You know who you are.lol

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend
Keep you in the dark
And so it all began

Send in your skeletons
Sing as their bones go marching in... again
The need you buried deep
The secrets that you keep are ever ready
Are you ready?
I'm finished making sense
Done pleading ignorance
That whole defense

Spinning infinity, boy
The wheel is spinning me
It's never-ending, never-ending
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

In time or so i'm told
I'm just another soul for sale... oh, well
The page is out of print
We are not permanent
We're temporary, temporary
Same old story

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

I'm the voice inside your head
You refuse to hear
I'm the face that you have to face
Mirrored in your stare
I'm what's left, I'm what's right
I'm the enemy
I'm the hand that will take you down
Bring you to your knees

So who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?
Yeah, who are you?

Keep you in the dark
You know they all pretend

What if I say I'm not like the others?
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

Selling

2008-12-20T08:03:00.000-08:00

Patches for sell.While stocks last!

Cds:
Ancient-Mad Grandiose Bloodfiends
armagedda-Ond Spiritism: Djæfvulens Skalde
Bloodthorn-Onwards Into Battle
Kult ov azazel-Triumph Of Fire

For more inquiries or purchase please E-mail me at nysrock_christbeheader@hotmail.com or SMS me personally if you have my number.
For more listing..please visit my blog from time to time as item will be updated as soon as new stocks arrive or visit http://www.myspace.com/ravagerex

P.S.Other merchandise(cds,patches,buttons,shirts) will also be on sale at the "welcome to the slaughterhouse massacre" gig on 27th december 2008(saturday).So do bring extra cash.

So they say..

2008-12-17T03:09:00.000-08:00

Ignorance is a bliss they say..
I say..if you're ignorant..Go kill yourself.
Have you ever get annoyed by human stupidity or the lack of general knowledge and common sense?
No matter how many times you tell them or teach them..they still dont understand?
Or how they can tell the difference between sarcasm and non-sarcasm(?)?Whatever.
For example..You tell me "Hey..im having the time of my life"
and i go "Good for you"..with a grin or eyes rolling or whatever body language showing im not interested or couldnt care less.Maybe if you're a fool you would think.."oh...he's happy for me!!"
But the fact is..im not..and inside my head im actually going "hope a car crash onto you and burn together with you" or "go kill yourself".
Have you ever talk about someone before..trying to bring them down but actually the people you love or you yourself are actually the same as what you said about someone.That person is actually not as heartless as u are as he/she does nt talk about it but have u ever reminiscent?

No.Im not blogging about this because im bored.Its because im damn pissed at alot of people.And yes..im one angry kid..very angry.There's lotsa things i wanna spit out but not today as im going for a drink...

till den..Hails!!\m/

December

2008-12-15T04:23:00.000-08:00

Today..i finally get what i've been craving for..Holland v chicken porridge..And thanks syqah for following me!!

but then..i was still hungry..so i bought 2 double cheeseburger and combine it together.And boy..it was messy..lol!

This december is probably the most busiest december ever.
the slaughter house gig is coming up.
i nd to get the shirts done.
im going for my RP course soon.
Im helping fezah with her school project.(Im acting as a psychotic bf who kill his gf scandal(?).LOL!!)
Court case anytime this month..Dont ask.

Today is also the 2nd tyme in 3 days that a hot chick smile at me and innterested to get to know me.And you know what i did..i blew it away..What the fuck(Syqah..The girl was damn happy sia..haha..nys mentel).Next time..if this happen again..i wont miss the chance.And dammit..im still hungry...i need more cheeseburgers!!!!

Ring A Bell?

2008-12-14T20:11:00.001-08:00

We Gotta Hold On To What We've Got.It Doesnt Make A Difference If We Make It Or Not.

im singing~

2008-12-09T13:44:00.000-08:00

Its 6 o'clock in the morning~
And i'm shirtless and pantless and erm...nvm..
I was watching detroit rock city,rockstar,almost famous and metal:a headbanger journey the whole night cause i couldnt sleep.after that i was lying in my bed with skid row playing out loud.(original cd.nt downloaded shit.unlike you rip offs!!)

After watching the movies.I come to realise how metal have had huge influence in the world today.They're probably the biggest genre ever to come out in the music industries.I always realise how metal actually had an impact on my life.Its the music i relate to everyday.People wake up drinking coffee or reading the newspaper.But i listen to iron maiden,infernal war,slayer,mayhem,skid row etc.I dont think i can ever live without rock in my life.Like one of black sabbath album "we sold our soul to rock n roll".I think i've did that.

I dont know if many people still feels the same way about it.But everytime i listen to metal.It takes me to another world.(sex drugs and rock n roll?)Total ecstasy.The feeling that no matter how many bottle of beer could ever.How many of you actually feel that way?

Like in Metal:a headbanger journey says "you either feel it or you dont.But with the 30000 people im standing here with..We're doing just fine without you"...or some sort like that.If you dont feel it.Go listen to disco.

No.Im not a fan of grindcore or hardcore or metal core or anything new age.For me..I like to keep it old school.There's an aura in pioneer bands like black sabbath,iron maiden,led zap,cream,kiss,ac/dc,skid row,bathory,venom and many more which can never ever be recreated.You never get bored listening to iron maiden but you will get sick listening to lamb of god(LOL) everyday.Get what i mean.

So true metalhead...Keep it real.\m/

:)

2008-12-08T14:25:00.000-08:00

Ya know..Its better if you start blogging about something else.Cause In the 1st place..no one lost anything nor did you gain anything.

2.You dont even know whats going on.

3.You dont know how much fun it is to be getting drunk with your closest mates instead of being coop up at home.

4.there's more to life than getting drunk and looking stupid.<---You really want to argue about this?Are you sure?

5.What makes you think i was blogging about you in the 1st place?tau malu tak?

6.Yup.It was fun actually decapitating the thing.

7.Good for you for having the time of your life.

8.yeah fuck the rest.
they lose, we gain.<---Then stop asking me "what they say?!I hate hints?!blablabla!Yadayadayadayadayada!

9.I certainly do need you to tell me to get a gf.Wtf?!

10.Seriously..fuck off..

11.How the fuck did i get sugar on my hair?!

oh boy...

2008-12-08T14:24:00.001-08:00

Awww...Here we go!!!!

Look..

2008-12-08T07:06:00.000-08:00

Take a look at what you've done.What you've just lost.What You've left behind.What you could have.Wasted Isnt It?LoL

My Own Korban.

2008-12-08T01:31:00.000-08:00

Today..I was bored.
Since i didnt go to the mosque for the massacre i decided why not have my own sacrifice..

So..This is what i came up with..

I call it "Love Decapitated"
Yup..thats what i came up with.
I think it needs a slogan too.
Stop Illegal Poaching?
Sounds good!!

Well its up for sell and it goes to the highest bidder!!
bidding starts at $2.Anyone?Bidding ends 31st of december then it will be sold to the highest bidder.lol

Some things need to be voiced out

2008-12-08T00:45:00.000-08:00

Respect,Dignity And Pride.

No.I dont disrespect my friends nor my elders.Thats why i dont do anything indecent infront of them

I gain respect through respect.

I protect the dignity and my pride well.

If you think im weak inside.You wrong.You dont know me now or what im going through and making good things come out of it.

If been through more shit then you ever have.I'm not "mister-i-want-that-so-i-gonna-get-mommy-to-buy-it-for-me" or "mister-i-die-if-im-all-alone-in-this-world".

Yes.I didnt get to enjoy my childhood cause its all full of senseless beatings,blood,hate,violence and anger.Thats what makes me stronger and more independent then you will ever be.

Yes.Im still human.I do feel sad and depress sometimes when shit happens.But i always bounce back no matter what.But its just the people that cause this shit to happen have stupid immatured thinking..OoOoOoHhHhHh~!black metal~no feelings~
These are the people who deserve to be kill like pigs.And no..We dont make pigs noises cause its a fucking digrace.Pigs are shit.Why would you make yourself sound like pigs?sheesh!

Go to hell for all i care.Im doing better then you.Im not a 20 sumthing man who ask for mommy money.I'm much more better.I'm doing way better academically.I see a very bright future ahead for me.I dont care what you going to think.Cause the one living it up is me.Not you.

You cant even get pass tertiary education without any problem still wanna talk so much?Go fix yourself before looking down on others.Cause the people bringing you down are the people you see all the time but dont know they're the ones bringing you down. :)

And I dont hang under someone armpit to make a name for myself.Unless you know whats going on..only then you have the right to tell me to get my facts right
I rest my case...for now.
Hails!

Respect

2008-12-07T08:28:00.001-08:00

I showed you much more respect infront of the whole world than what you are portraying yourself to be right now.What a shame.Total disgrace.I'm disappointed and ashamed at the same time.Tsk Tsk.

I got a question..

2008-12-06T22:53:00.001-08:00

How do people in National Service berangan ORD?Everyone will ORD sooner or later.So...How do someone berangan ORD?Unless the person who says that doesnt actually know how or when to use the word "berangan" then i rest my case.

Today..

2008-12-06T08:19:00.000-08:00

So..This is one of the most boring saturday i have ever been through.

I left the house at 7 plus to meet qhai at city hall.Then went over to boat quay to meet shid as she wanted to meet me.Miss her loads and boy was she happy to see me..i didnt think she would stop hugging me.lol.Tina called but i didnt answer i cause i was busy talking to shid.Found out she just saw me.Shid ask me to st.james with her but i decline as i'm broke and i wasnt dress for the occasion.And she ask me out to a gig and a drink next week.A date ah shid?lol.I thought of meeting jun but she wasnt around cityhall.Then we went over to the other side of boat quay to pas some slaughter house tix to magus(myanmar cult black metal guy.Hails!!)Then bump into najib..talk for awhile then went to marina square to meet Has.And qhai wanted to pass her birthday present.so yea..Happy b'day Has!Then we head back home.

Thats my saturday.=.="
Fuck..someone help me please..

The day i became a gossip uncle..

2008-12-05T20:58:00.000-08:00

So..This is a conversation i had wif a "friend who shall not be name"(Lord voldemort?) and Sid.

This is a conversation about someone we know and i hope someone out there "tk terase" cause this is just a mere coincidence that it sounds so familiar or something like that.Whatever.We shall call my "friend who shall not be name" lord voldemort just for the fun of it.

convo wif Lord voldemort

lord voldemort says:
i read his ex's blog

lord voldemort says:
the bf like whart sia

Ihsan Nysrock-Essence Of Pure Anti-Human Terror says:
fat right!!!

lord voldemort says:
fat takper

lord voldemort says:
like sissy

Ihsan Nysrock-Essence Of Pure Anti-Human Terror says:
wahlau

Ihsan Nysrock-Essence Of Pure Anti-Human Terror says:
cant believe she left him for a fat sissy stinkin ass

Ihsan Nysrock-Essence Of Pure Anti-Human Terror says:
wtf

lord voldemort says:
she look better off with him seriusly

lord voldemort says:
but nvm

lord voldemort says:
he'll get someone better

And here's a convo with Sid.

Ihsan Nysrock-Essence Of Pure Anti-Human Terror says:
see her bf already?

SID "kittie" SUICIDE aka the SEX kitten says:
dah

SID "kittie" SUICIDE aka the SEX kitten says:
tak hensem langsung

Ihsan Nysrock-Essence Of Pure Anti-Human Terror says:
haha!

SID "kittie" SUICIDE aka the SEX kitten says:
eh no offence but aku lagi lawah sak

SID "kittie" SUICIDE aka the SEX kitten says:
ahahahahaha

Ihsan Nysrock-Essence Of Pure Anti-Human Terror says:
lol

SID "kittie" SUICIDE aka the SEX kitten says:
s4eriusly she sounds like some hot stuff tryna prove she gt a hot man... and making him sound like a total joke

SID "kittie" SUICIDE aka the SEX kitten says:
but yea he is such and off cliff.

SID "kittie" SUICIDE aka the SEX kitten says:
hahaha

Lol..Once in awhile..i would love to gossip about someone elses personal life when everytime its mine who always become the talk of the town.

You know...

2008-12-04T05:26:00.000-08:00

You don't fucking have to shove it in my face.I don't need any salt rubbed in my fucking wound when in the first place i ain't done shit to you.So fuck you!

Just Fucking

2008-12-04T04:11:00.001-08:00

Ok...So this month is the worst month of my life.Thanks to you.I dont have the mood for anything.I've got nothing to do and i'm on a very fucking long leave.Everything is a fucking joke.I'm still stone.I'm fucking sick.Everyone just somehow annoys me.Your very fucking existence annoys me.I'm still pissed

I'm broke because of alcohol,cigarettes and constant pub-ing.
Yes i know.Stop drinking.No.I wont.Fuck you.
I've got lotsa shit goin on.I've got lotsa on my mind.Yeah i know.I'm not the only one.Yeah i know.Talk to someone about it.Look at the brighter side of life.
The problem with me...I don't talk to someone about shit unless im drunk.Brighter side of life will just turn gloomy so fuck it.The bottle's my best friend.Alcohol makes things better for me.No.I don't do drugs.Yes.I enjoy getting drunk and pissing stranger off.Cause unlike some people.I don't hurt the people i love.But i would destroy anyone who would try to harm them.I'm left with $35 for the weekend.And i'll see you motherfuckers over at Sahara and we'll talk over a jug of beer.Hails!

So here i go..

2008-12-03T04:32:00.000-08:00

So..This is it.The start of everything new.Cunts says things will get better.well No.Im still fucked.Im high while typing this.My parents cant be bothered with me anymore.

Its december now.I actually got lotsa shit planned out.But guess it wont happen no more.Fucking waste.Here's my schedule for december

5th til 9th-Leave
12th till 15th-leave
19th till 22nd-leave/off
25th-christmas
31st-off

Being so free in december..I've got nothing to look forward to except 27th dec.
Unless Marduk and Behemoth decide to come.S either then that..Ive got nothing except getting drunk.What the fuck am i gonna fucking do with all this leave i've got?It ended to soon if not i would have plan to go Thailand earlier.5th till 9th.No.I dont bother with hari raya haji.No.Im not going Thailand for any sex change op if thats what any of you typical minded bastards are thinking.Fuck.So..What the fuck am i to do now?Zouk out?Oh well..What the hell.If my december suck,Im blaming you.

When drunks talk..

2008-12-01T02:19:00.001-08:00

Last night i was out drinking down a bottle of vodka with ehsan and shawal.We had a flashback on how we were back in the days.The fights we get into.The pride we held on to.The bond we had.The shit we get ourself into.It was fun in those days.As the years gone back.Bakcstabbing,hypocrisy,politics began cropping up.No one could be trusted.Thats how we fell.But Some of us still are close.

Anyway..This is the pattern in life.Cunts come and go.Some will stick by you no matter what.Some will just shove you aside once they're done with you.Thats how pathetic life is.There's a saying which your bastards always say "He/she's happy..you should be happy that he/she's happy".

Yea right.Why would you wanna see someone whom you thought you could trust but in the end turns around and bite you happy.Not me.Thats why i've been a terror.2 years ago.I brought everyone back together.A year later.I'm the one who cause everyone to split again.Reason?Thats for you to find out.

I realise that no one can be trusted.No.Not even yourself.Hack..I dont even trust my family.For all you know that might be planning to send me back into the place so white that made me go crazy.Yes.I am being paranoid.No.I dont even trust the friends im close with.Not anymore.Its a dog eat dog world out there.The best you can do is bring everyone down before they bring you down.Shitty experiences ive been through made me look at life in a different way.And i blame the people who put me through this shit.No.I will never blame myself for anything cause as far as i know..i'm always right. :)

Appriciate what the fuck you have

2008-11-29T20:59:00.000-08:00

Last night.I was surfing the net i accidentally stumble a website on poverty.
Looking at all those pics and the shit those kids are going through makes me realise how fuck up all of us are.

They wanna go to school.We get to go to school but we're too lazy to go to.

They eat biscuits made out of mud.We complain our food taste like mud.

They got no parents.We complaint our parents do this..do that.

They are sick.Really sick.We get petty over a mere cold.

We complaint we have bloated tummies.They have bloated tummies cause they got nothing to eat and its all air inside.

The most valuable thing they get to see is the sky when the wake up every single morning telling them they're still alive.We complaint when we don't get the latest gadgets.

They're wearing slippers made out of plastic bottles.We complaint because our slippers arent comfy enough.

A child dies every three seconds from AIDS and extreme poverty, often before their fifth birthday.
More than one billion people do not have access to clean water.
Every year six million children die from malnutrition before their fifth birthday.
More than 50 percent of Africans suffer from water-related diseases such as cholera and infant diarrhea.
More than 800 million people go to bed hungry every day, 300 million are children.
Of these 300 million children, only eight percent are victims of famine or other emergency situations. More than 90 percent are suffering long-term malnourishment and micronutrient deficiency.

I've seen people complaining about their daily needs.I admit.Even i do.But sometimes you just have to realize.Even if you're having a bad day..Someone out there..somewhere in the world is having a much more worst life.Appreciate what you have.The things you take for granted might be the things you actually need the most.

If you have the time..Go to the website and have a look at how life is for them
http://cozay.com/

im bored..

2008-11-28T05:51:00.001-08:00

So fuck you

ORD LOH!!!

2008-11-28T02:33:00.000-08:00

Here's my ord plan list..5 more months!!

1.Prepare for school
2.Try to get a part time job
3.Holiday in Thailand.(unconfirmed)
4.Back in Singapore.
5.Fly over to Canada to visit my dear uncle whom i have not seen for over a decade.
6.In Canada..Look at how life is down there.
7.Decision or back in Singapore
8.Back to school while doing a sideline business(to be unveil soon enough)
9.Get a part time job.A fucking must.
10.Get my fucking driving license
11.Run someone over with a monster truck.Go haywire and start shooting everyone like its GTA.
12.Rot in jail.
13.LoL
14.11 is just some fun thinking
15.12 is what will happen if i do 11
16.13 is because i got no other plans yet
17.Make everyone who has ever look down or turn me down look up at me

This is it

2008-11-28T01:45:00.000-08:00

What am i fighting for?I have no fucking clue.Recently ive been thinking alot.What do i believe in now?I have no idea.What was i fighting for before?I cant remember.What am i standing up for?Im confuse.Why am i here?Someone please tell me.No.I'm not being emo or shit.I suddenly have no idea what to believe in.Everything keep racing in and out of my mind.Yes.I am back to my old way with just something missing.Believing in something.There's so much to do.So much to redeem.From the past.For now.For the future.I hate going around without anything to fight for.Thats what makes life boring.Whats there to fight for now?I dont care.Be it physically or mentally or whatever.I just wanna fight for something.Something that i believe in.But what the fuck do i believe in now?No.Please dont go "fight for a better future for your own" or "everyday is a fight in life".I know that shit.Those are the typical things in life.Its like as obvious as why countries go to war.Fight for metal?Fight for my own rights?What rights do i have?Fight for my life?Against what?Its getting boring.Getting drunk and nothing to rant about everyday is beginning to bug me alot.Fuck it..Lets just fight.

ahh...C'mon!

2008-11-27T02:39:00.000-08:00

Would everyone give it a fucking rest?!I'm over this shit..Give me some fucking break here aite?I'm happy getting drunk every single day..Sitting in my room slamming on my guitar.I'm happy chain smoking.I'm happy being the bastard on the train that shove everyone aside.I'm happy being a racists cunts who goes around calling people stupid fucks.I'm happy being to who i was.No.I'm not doing this because i'm being defiant just because she left me in search of her own "happiness" which now i come to believe there is not such thing as happiness except joy.Happiness last..joy doesnt.But it can be repeated with something different.

So give it a fucking rest or go to hell you son of a bitches.I'm over it..So you get over fucking it!I dont anyone to care.I dont need anyone to be there.I'm fine by my own.I dont need anyone to going "oooHhH..i'm happy for you" or "im glad you've move on".Go fuck a dog cunts.When i'm pissed..it means im pissed.Nothing you faggots say will ever change it.It whether i wanna shut up or not.

Like i'll always say..whatever it is..lets take it out on the streets motherfuckers

Extinction Of Dinosaurs

2008-11-25T02:06:00.000-08:00

You know there's alot of theories on how dinosaur become extinct.Mind you..they're "theories".So one day while i was lazing around in camp thinking of this..i realize if those dumb scientist can think of ways how dinosaur died..so can i..n its a whole better theory that may change the world of dinosaur and this theory i think should be included in science textbook all over the world.

So this is my theory:
Dinosaurs are not only the ultimate killing machine..they are also the ultimate FIGHTING machine..over 125 millions ago..there was a war..between dinosaurs and man.Well..it wasnt exactly a war as dinosaurs are very high-tech.They fought with laser beams and light sabers where as man on the other hand fight with stones and bones.So..go figure.
One day the dinosaurs were bored fighting weak humans.So they built a spaceship and travel the universe in search of worthy opponents.

See..it makes much more sense then a comet smacking itself on earth would it?tell me..if you were a comet..would you go a crash land yourself on this puny planet?of course not!sheesh!

Lets start This over.

2008-11-23T20:58:00.000-08:00

Forget about Alyssa.And Alyssa..forget everything aite?i've had enough.Anyways..This is about me and just me.Back to the old way of my blogging.

How many of you bastards realize that everywhere around you there's always someone who thinks they're everything?I'm not saying i'm not everything..cause to me..i am everything in my own world..i dont know bout you guys.But its the people around me that expects to much from me for being who i am.Anyway..have you ever meet anyone who thinks they're right about some particular lifestyle just because they're close with someone with that particular way of life?I have.I know its not my problem.But it somehow annoys me.I know some people who are that type of person.Oh no..i dont know about any other "lifestyle or culture" cause i only care about own way of living and i cant be bothered about anything else.

My point is..this people..what are they actually thinking of?Why are people close to them think they're right?I fell for it once.But never will i ever again.What is their aim.NO..i dont go and see a kid black metaller and straight away call him a poser..i gave them a chance..and this is how it ended up.Unlike other people this days who just look at people from the outside.everyone have to start off somewhere.so did you..and me..and even you.So..change the way on how you look at people.Understand their believes.DOnt talk about things you dont understand cause you will never understand it.

Be Realistic

2008-11-23T20:55:00.000-08:00

This is the world..apologies doesnt solve anything.Sorry doesnt solve anything no matter how many times you say it.Action speaks louder then words.

The Final Conclusion

2008-11-23T20:26:00.000-08:00

This how the story goes..boy meets girl..fell in love..get together..have plenty of fun..boy tolerates girl's attitude..girl lost her feelings..dumps the boy..boy did nuthing wrong..boy was depress,lost,angry and piss.Says things he didnt mean to say.Girl didnt understand how he feels.Only care on how she feels.Girl make it seems the boy is an asshole.Girl try to make it seems its the boys fault everything.Girl try to make everyone thinks its the boy's fault.Boy is damn pissed.He's out to kill.He's had it with everyone.If you think the boy is an asshole.Boy says go ahead.If you think its the boys fault for not being there for her when he is the victim.Go ahead.
Boy is fighting the world alone.Doesnt care bout nothing.Not afraid of anything.Boy is independent enough to live alone instead of being a 20something who still takes money from mommy.Boy is a fucking piss drunk bastard who will destroy anyone who tries to harm him.Boy is back to being himself.Girl will blog something about boy after this.Boy wouldnt give a fuck.Boy thinks if anybody is unhappy with him just take it out to the street and get the fun started.Boy is out to make enemies.Boy is ihsan nysrock christbeheader.HE WILL NEVER FUCKING FALL!

dick shit

2008-11-23T03:27:00.000-08:00

When Life Gives You Lemon..Squeeze It At Somebodies elses Eyes And Run Like Hell.

yea..

2008-11-23T01:46:00.001-08:00

i understand now...

Thank you

2008-11-23T01:03:00.000-08:00

Thank you pretending to care
Thank you for happily leaving me
Thank you for cheating on me
Thank you for lying
Thank you for making everything i do for you seem so worthless
Thank you for being so cold
Thank you for being unfair
Thank you for turning every fault at me
Thank you for making ruining every thing
Thank you for just letting go everything we've done together
Thank you for calling me selfish when it was never about me..just this once
Thank you for the sleepless nights
Thank you for the heartache,pain,anger,hatred and confusions
Thank you for wasting my time
Thank you for pretending
Thank you for hating me

Fuck you for this bullshit:
he's all i want.
he's all i need.

Fuck it Once And FOr All

2008-11-23T00:57:00.000-08:00

I've been strip off my pride..
I've been kick around,cut,stitch and scarred..
I've fighting for what i've believe in..
I'm the source of the guilt which is the one who's suppose to be feeling guilty..
I need to be happy for someone who left me in a snap..
I'm standing up against the world alone again..
I dont need anybody..
I dont need anyone to pull out the "knife out my back"..
The bottle's my bestfriend..
I've been a fool for someone all this while..
I was in a world of lies which i didnt know of..
Fuck it..

This is my life..
My world..
My reality..
my believe..
Welcome back ihsan nysrock christbeheader..
Black metal is krieg..
Fuck everything else..
Its time to start the burning

Yea Lies...

2008-11-23T00:49:00.000-08:00

This Song From Puddle Of Mudd Somehow Is Kinda Meaningful To Me.Something I Can Relate To And Throw Everything The Fuck Out.

Look at me now
Just sittin here by myself
And I think you found someone else
Now I'm gonna have to find
A way to put the bottle down
And why can’t you see
That I’m drowning in a pool of misery

I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost

So here I am
I don't wanna be by myself
And I think you’re fucking someone else
now im gonna have to find a way
To take the knife out of my back
And how could you leave me
Stranded in a closet full of bones

I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost

Maybe you could let me stay
Maybe just for one more day
You could help me stay the same
Maybe things won’t ever change
Maybe we could taste the rain
You could push me out the way

Now I sit here by myself
Think about somebody else
How could you let them take you away from me
There’s somebody else
There’s somebody else!

I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re lost in somebody
I’m always afraid
That you’re gone
Away from me
I’m always afraid
That you’re...

We're all to be blame

2008-11-21T23:07:00.000-08:00

Blame me for everything.
Aim me with everything.
Throw every fault at me.
Say that everything i do is so fucking wrong.
Im the victim...

Not Worth

2008-11-20T02:23:00.000-08:00

It doesnt pay to be nice.
It doesnt pay to be sincere.
It doesnt pay trying to be perfect.
It doesnt pay trying your best to make someone happy.
It doesnt pay to be everything they want.
It doesnt pay to love.

It pays to be greedy.
It pays to be revengeful.
It pays to be hateful.
It pays to be evil.
It pays to hurt.
It pays to spread fear.

Fuck it

2008-11-19T06:03:00.000-08:00

I cant be bothered about anything anymore.
I couldnt care less about anything anymore.
Feel my anger unleash on this fucking world..
Its time for total destruction of every single things that makes your life beautiful.
Fuck you!

freedom

2008-11-06T03:32:00.000-08:00

What is true freedom?
Being able to choose your leader?
Going public about your unhappiness of the system?
Going wherever you want?
Doing whatever you want?
Believing in whatever you want?
A world without religion and culture?
A world without passports,ids,history of your life in a computer somewhere and government?
A world without judgement?
A world without good nor bad?

fuck

2008-11-04T04:22:00.000-08:00

Fuck the corrupted system of the modern world.

Fuck your so called non sexist believes.

Fuck your peace loving believes.

Fuck your sorry state.

Fuck your weak mind and soul.

Fuck your not accepting reality ways.

Fuck your dreams.

Fuck your stupid ways.

Fuck your eyes for not seeing the real world.

Fuck yourself for being you.

And fuck you.

Ihsan believe it or not

2008-11-01T21:31:00.000-07:00

It just amazes me sometimes on how some people who are just born so fucking dumb that they put their toe on their lip when the teacher ask them to put their finger on their lips during primary school.I mean how did they even make it to primary 2?how do they even cross the road?How do they even make it to teenage life?How do they even make friends when they're intellectually impaired.They talk about things they doesnt make sense.They say about things to make other people look bad but actually they're saying something they reflects on how fucking dumb they are..take veronica for instance.if any of you actually follow up on the so called "feud" we're having..you'll probably agree with me too..i kinda pity her parents..they're probably sitting in their room every night together complaining on how they should have worn a condom..

I think dumb people should be charge under the singapore law for being too stupid..they're just going to make a fool of themselves infront of others..so..to save them the embarressment..they should just be hang....and oh no..it wouldnt be inhumane...cause they wont even know that they're dead..they're too stupid to know that.. :)

dont mess with me

2008-10-31T05:45:00.000-07:00

People who really know me knows that messing around with me or the people i love is a bad move.This girl..Veronica..(some of you may know here since she's so hardcore anyway..lol)should have known better then to mess with my gf..bad move cunt...and no peopl..neither me or my gf owe her anything or whatsoever..i dont know whats her problem..but it happen over comments on friendster..k uh..its kinda pathetic of her to start it there..since she already started it..i might just have some childish fun..here are the comments:

it all started when my gf post a harmless shout out on her friendster:whats with minah and labrets<---or sumthing lyke that..lol
veronica:hmmm then wassup with girls having monroe and septum piercings when they are oh-so-last-summer?

and alyssa being sarcastic

alyssa:well you tell me veronica, since you're the one with both septum and monroe.
i had my septum since last year. *shrugs*

matt:Who's the bimbo veronica ?<---klah..this is random uh..just think it would be funny to post it here..lol

veronica:haha i had my fair shares of piercings since 06 [: <-----who gives a fuck?

alyssa:okay whatever veronica,
i pierce because i appreciate the art of bodymod,
not fashion.
MOVING ON :)

veronica:hahah well, im not you so i wont know if ya talkin the truth. but keep it real babe. keep it real and going.<----of course u'r not her..if u are..u wouldnt be hopeless..

here comes the pain...

NYSROCK!!!:trying to sound cool on friendster is gay.if she got guts she can try it outside.i love you babe.

and yes.Ihsan is still a violence cunt when he is wasted and still thirst for blood

NYSROCK!!!:veronica jgn mcm paham ah

veronica:hahaha eh ihsan. i never said im tryna be tuff and all. no hard feelings but i just speak my mind and speak what i see. cause to me, people should just stop whining about what they dislike. nobody in these world pleases you. and how can i meet her out when i dont even meet you anymore? har har har.

alyssa:look, you say you speak your mind, i speak my mine what i see everyday and you call that whining? well, more like im just stating the obvious, do yourself a favour and learn your vocabulary again. fyi, your own shout out is considered WHINING so look whose talking? dissing people because of them somewhat, "whining" dosent make you look any cooler veronica. just makes you look so, typical.

enough said.

NYSROCK!!!:hard to believe u actuali got a mind...speak waht u see?what does a small fresh chinese kid like you hav seen?u've seen nuthin yet...everyone hav the right to whine about wad they dont like.u use to whine alot to me...remember?on how ah tank call u a poser n stuff...cant mit her up?or me?well..over the years..things like handphones..e-mails..friendster and myspace has been invented if u notice..so i dont see difficulty of doin things in reality rather then cyberspace...unless ur brain is too full of melamine like ur china counterparts hav put into our food den i dont blame ur for being an imbecile or watsoever..i dont judge nor label or give a shit about anything "scene or trendy"..mayb dats what makes u a downright wanker for trying to hard..if u hadnt bother anyone..no one wld have bother u..

NYSROCK!!!:if u jus hav stick to perhaps cantopop or j.j lin may ur life wld hav been better den trying to had to be like other teenagers who's trying too hard to get attention cause mayb their parents nvr gave dem enuff at home..mayb dats what turned u into a trendy wanker whose existence is pointless in this beautiful world.

thats it for now..
i dont like to do this but since my gf is being attack by an attention seeking slit eye..i oso want attention lor..yup..this will spark off a huge controversy..but i dont really give a fuck...cause thats what im all about..thats what make me...me!

Dont mess with me..i will smash ur face on the ground.And humiliate the shit out of you if dont back off.

Reality

2008-10-26T05:08:00.000-07:00

Birth.Judge.Hate.Anger.Curse.Violence.Kill.Destroy.Sin.Blood.Death.Fuck.

<3

2008-10-21T04:54:00.000-07:00

Live For Your Smile And Die For Your Kiss

Hari Fucking Raya!

2008-10-18T20:02:00.001-07:00

Yes.I do celebrate hari raya.I went raya-ing last sunday with sec sch friends who are all 2 years older than me and we have been together for 8 years.im proud of being a muslim and a malay no matter what all of you will say.im proud of my roots.im proud of who i am.MALAY POWER!!
And oh yeah..This is the first time in my life im actually out raya-ing with someone i love.i love you alyssa.

*Note:The girl in pink is a macam paham.i dont know who the hell she is by the way.

Life

2008-10-18T19:44:00.000-07:00

What is life?Why are we created in the first place?we are born..we suffer..we had joy..we study..we work our ass off and we die.

Are we the real life "the sims" for god?he's bored so he decided to create beings on earth call humans which he controls n if one dies..he still got about 4 billion more to play with.

I had a quick thought on life yesterday while out with alyssa at east coast.What does life really mean?what is it really meant for?what does life has in store for everyone in the future?Why does life goes round and round for some people?why does it repeat itself over and over again?i guess if i ask a grandma or a grandpa they would probably answer.."takdir tuhan"~

why is everyone so afraid to plan their own future?we do we have to follow?why do we hurt the ones we love?why cant we lead?why are we victims of "god's plan"?.why cant we have our own fucking life?

Regimental Police

2008-10-08T08:12:00.000-07:00

Maybe Some of you dont know yet..i've just recently been posted to Kranji Camp III as a regimental police guard 2ic.

Here my work timing...7.30am-5.30pm(unless on 24 hr duty and 5pm on friday)
10 hrs spend in camp per day..2hrs of duty per day the remaining 8 hrs...SLEEP,SMOKE,EAT & TALK COCK.Good life aint it?

Man United

2008-09-24T03:32:00.000-07:00

With only one win so far in the EPL..i'm getting rather restless.Will man utd lose the title to arsenal who is looking rather tight(better than chelsea)this season or will man city takeover man utd to be the biggest club around.

after yest 3-1 over boro n ronaldo scoring his first goal this season(even tho its just the carling cup) things have been looking better for them..and my ego.the lost to liverpool and draw with chelsea really tested my patience and pride when all those against man united around me keep boasting how man united couldnt win.

so..will ronaldo regain the form he had last season?will tevez,rooney n berbatov finally score some goals?will man united win the tittle for a 3rd consecutive season?will they retain European glory again?

True Man United fan out there..if you with me..pray and support them hard this season cause things are no gonna be easy for man united as chelsea,arsenal,liverpool and man city(?) are getting stronger.

Have faith in Manchester United!
Glory Glory Man United!

Ihsan Is Still Krieg

2008-09-21T03:48:00.000-07:00

Most of you might have probably heard rumours of me no longer being black metal.Well guess what bitch..its all wrong.Tell those bastards who goes around gossiping about me to come suck on my dick cause im still around suckers!

Sure i may not have been going to gigs or hanging out with other BM or sometimes you see me wearing "normally" but that doesnt mean ive gone gay.I have a personal life too you stupid fucks.being black metal doesnt mean u have to "dress up" 24/7 or go to every single gigs in town or hang out with BM all the time or support every single local black metal bands.Why should i go to every single gigs when those bands playing arent those i really support.why should i hang out with bm all the time when all they do is wasting my precious weekends by doing nothing.why should i support a black metal band just because they're locals.What if they'r not the type of bm i like?

So cant a guy wear anything else besides band t-shirts?i like manchester united.been a fan since 1995.i'm proud of wearing their jersey so fuck off.cant a bm enjoy sports too?black metal is all about the music for me.i wear those bands t-shirt cause i support them.i listen to them cause it gives me a sense of confidence, strength,power and the will to carry on in life.it doesnt matter what i wear or who i hang out with.im still true.unlike posers out there listening to dimmu borgir or cradle of filth and wearing all black n shit or whatever.Or maybe dressing up as chris angel(you might as well dress up as hellboy or daredevil)

Even thought i dont get around much this days i'm still true to who i am,what i stand for,what i believe in.im truer then those wankers out on the streets.im truer than you are.i've been kick around,cut,stitch and scarred.ive been looked down at before.ive work all my way up to who i am now for a fucking long time now.What makes you think i will ever "hang up my boots"
so get this into your fucking thick skulls..if someone told you i've "hang up my boots"..they're wrong.the only time i'll hang my boots is when i'm hanging in out to dry.if someone ever tell you that ive "hang up my boots" tell em to suck on my dick.

Ihsan Nysrock is still krieg!!\m/

Kitties

2008-08-30T10:07:00.000-07:00

Its been a few months since the disappearance of my cat..Last week i finally decided that i need a new cat....So..i called up a few people who wanted to put cats and kittens up for adoption and i finally decided on a siamese cross breed kitten..

Today was the day for me to view the cat..so me and alyssa went all the way to kranji to take the bus from there.we waited for about 45 mins for the bus as the bus only come every one hour.We finally reach the place..it was actually a boarding house for cats and dogs..We saw alot of beautiful cats..and alyssa was going crazy..lol..

Than..finally we were able to see the siamese kitten i wanted to adopt..her name is siam siam..abt 2 mths old..than..the lady there told us siam siam wont part with its mom..so its either i wait for about another 2 weeks..or take her and her mom together...i decided to take both together.So then..it was time to go home..we got kicked out of the mrt as they dont allow pets on board..haha!so..we decided to take the bus..if we got kick out..then take the cab..lol.we manage to take the bus so its was home soon.

Once we reach home..i bring the cats to my room and let it out..As usual..they were curious of their new home..at the same time nervous.Alyssa want to kidnap siam siam..haha!Dream on baby~!Well..thats about it for now..the cats are getting use to their new home..my family love the cats..its a happy ending!

Here You Go Baby...

2008-08-27T03:37:00.000-07:00

Aite..Alyssa Request That I Do This For Her And Post It On My Blog..So..Here You Go...

1. Whats your name?David Ihsan Villa..

2. Do I know you?You Dare Say U Dont?!

3. Are we good friends?Lols..You're My Girlfriend!

4. Do you find me attractive?Like Duh~~

5. Would you ever consider going out with me?Always!

6. Do you live near me?Kinda...

7. Do you have my number?Up In My Head!

8. Would you give me your number?You Gave Me Your Number!!!No Wait...Syqah Did..lols

9. If you could give me anything would it be?ermm...All The Hello Kitty You Want?

10. Would you kiss me?Every Second!

11. What was your first impression ?Fuck...I'm In Love...lols

12. Do you have feelings for me?Yea..And I Will Always Love You

13. Would you take me home for the night?Muahahahaha!!And You Can Never Go Back Home!

14. Would you make out with me?Deffo!!

15. Hold me?Always Will Baby

16. What would you do if I told you I like you (more then friends )?Hug You And Kiss You And Never Let Go

17. Give me a nickname and explan why you picked it.Cookie...Bacin...Dunno..You Always Say cookie..And I Always Call You Bacin

18. What would you do if I told you i love you?I Love You Back?I Already Love You!!

19. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldnt?Neh...YOU CANT HANDLE THE TRUTH!!MUAHAHAHA!!

20. What reminds you of me?HELLO KITTY!!

21. What do I smell like? (Crap.. flowers.. HOLLISTER.. etc.)Sugar,Spice And Everything Nice

22. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you?This Is On My Blog =.="

Today

2008-08-09T08:52:00.000-07:00

Met Alyssa at Boon Lay cause i needed to go to graff. imprint to print out some patches but in the end didnt cause they're too poor to get a computer somehow =.="
So we headed over to Holland Village to have our lunch.She had chicken rice and i had chicken porridge cause i was having a flu..sucks..i know.the initial plan was actually to have ice cream over at cold rocks but we were too full.lol.

Took a cab to Vivo City.We were walking around then she decided to get a sun dress.While she was in the shop..i went to smoke and secretly plan with syqah to come over to vivo without telling Alyssa cause that would be a great surprise for her.
Then we went to Built-a-bear to get her hello kitty and fuck that took quite a while cause Alyssa couldnt make up her mind which underwear and shirt to get for the hello kitty.lol.You guys should really try going there.Seriously.

Then we went to pet safari.Just walk around in there then went shopping at daiso..lol!i didnt get much though but Alyssa really shop alot!Then syqah came and damn Alyssa was fucking happy.Its great to see her happy.After that we went to..erm..wtf is the book store name again..fuck it lah!<--this is not the bookstore name btw..lol

Syqah was going crazy over a camera and i was getting bored..was walking around in circles looking at nothing..then met azhar..we went to macdonalds for dinner(its hard to go there when you are with make-up crazy girls)

After that we hang outside of vivo for awhile...Syqah and Alyssa was camwhoring around with each other while me and azhar was rapping..LOL!!It really great to see Alyssa really happy.After that..we go to town.Nothin much there..then head off to city hall to meet the rest of the guys(syqah and azhar went off somewhere with their friends who they met at town)

We just hang around a lil bit..then its time to go home....

And oh yeah...i bump into my homie Dr.P at vivo city too..

By nysrock

wow..

2008-08-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

Organizing the SAFTI anniversary,National Day Celebration and broadcasting of the Olympic Opening Ceremony for the whole of Singapore Armed Forces Military Institute is damn fucking exhausting and stressful.Been Standing up since 1000 till 2230.If it wasnt for that General who held the whole SAFTI back just to watch Team Singapore walk out during the Olympic Opening Ceremony..I would have been home by 2230 earliest!The worst part is..at 2230..Team Singapore still did not appear.Luckily he decided to go home as waiting for Team Singapore to walk out is taking too long.2230..still need to clear the place up..but as usual..the cadets do the shit..i just order them around...lol.
2315...Finally can go home!fucking have to waste 8 bucks for the cab fare...cibai!!!

I Am

2008-08-02T23:50:00.000-07:00

FUCKING PISS OFF!!

So It Is...

2008-08-01T03:32:00.000-07:00

About one month ago...i fell in love with a girl that i saw at a gig which i didnt know.I was telling qhai and zaid that she's mine(she just doesnt know it yet back then)
I didnt put hopes on her or anything cause i thought she might be with someone else but she wasnt as i found out*winkx*.I manage to get her number from syqah..(thanks baby!!)
Soon enough..we got together.

She..Alyssa...was the girl i've always wanted.She's willing to accept me the way i am.She's patient enough to listen to me ranting how fucked up the world is.She's always interested whenever i talk to her about ancient middle eastern wars(most of you would probably tell me to shut up).She's so loving that i cant remember the last time i felt so loved.She's always there for me no matter what.

Spending time with her is gold cause its always great.I'd do anything just to spend time with her.Just to be with her.Even though people have been telling her shit about me which isnt true.She still trust me as much as i trust her.Her smile is so precious that its the last thing i wanna see before i fuck up from this horrible,ugly,smelly world and move to hell(Move over satan!!i'm taking your place!)

Alyssa will always be the one for me.I wont say let fate decide our future cause i determine my own fate.I determine my own future.And my future..beside pissing all those people i love to pissed..is to be with Alyssa for good and nothing will get in my way.

Alyssa...You Will Always Be My Baby.<3 010708

Fucked

2008-07-29T04:02:00.000-07:00

Over the past few months..most of you cunts probably notice that i've been going to gigs that arent even metal.Here's the deal..i'm not changing...i'm still ihsan nysrock.i go to this gigs cause my friends are in it.i'm there to support them.doesnt mean being metal you have to only have metal friends.and amazingly..this are the friends who i can really trust.

Anyway..what i'm gonna touch about aint about this.Recently..i notice that lotsa kids are into photography,art,drawing(or whatever) and some even goin to the extend of having their own clothing line.Here's my point of view.Its all bullshit and are just some shitty trends that will pass on soon.Well this is my blog.i've got the right to say whatever i want whether you like it or not.i'm not discriminating all of you.some are really into it and really their talent.well..some of you..you just really suck.i might as well shit on a piece of paper and leave it out to dry and it'll be better then your best "artwork".i could take a better picture then you.and btw..i'm a trained photographer.was in the photography club for couple of years in my sec sch time.(that was the point when most of you think photography is gay)and i'm a wedding photographer for 3 years.(havta stop cause of ns)..How bout art..hmm..i'm good at it drawing..and good with my hands..VERY.(i'm saying this out loud and proud!)

but here's the reality.Photography club..i was force into it.cause i got no cca.wedding photographer..just for the cash.good at art..but i hate art :)
i've seen most of your stupid photos..or drawings..or clothing line...and basically..its all fucking the same.its not worth 10 cents in the real world.
everyone's doing the same shit.everyone's into the same shit.where's the originality?

so tell me..do you cunts really have talent?are you really into it?or issit just cause everyone's doing it..and it seems cool that you are doing it to?

Lets fucking start the controversy!

Kill

2008-07-19T10:24:00.000-07:00

I'm pissed off by imbeciles today

1st-The boss of alvron

2nd-The fella working at alvron today..(nt alyssa hor!)

3rd-The Cunt Serving me and my baby at coffee bean(wheelock)

4th-The stupid cunt that gave me and my baby white chocolate instead of hot chocolate(we ordered hot chocolate)

5th-The bastard the cut the queue at the atm machine(actually they didnt..they reach the line before we did..dammit!!)

6th-The atm machine.cause we couldnt draw 20 bucks.It told us to draw 50 bucks instead =.="

7th-The cunt who cut the queue when we were paying for the sushi(he really did cut the queue but Alyssa told me to just let it go..darn it!!)

8th-The bunch of assholes who stared at me at the tunnel as though their dad owned the tunnel(I wanna knock the shit out of that stupid short fat cunt but Alyssa told me to let it go..again...darn it!)

I'm a kid(?) who's just full of angst arent i?But then again there's always my baby who will always make my day

I Love You Alyssa <3

What I Did Today...

2008-07-18T08:16:00.000-07:00

I was in camp today..which kinda pissed me off..my wsm(wing sgt major)who is a 1st warrant pissed me off real bad.Here's the story:
On tuesday he told me and my guys that on friday(which is today)if we got nothing to do we can take half day off.But he told us to give him a call before going off.(He's on leave from Wednesday till sunday).So..i gave him a call before going of as instructed.Here's the coversation.

Me:sir..we got nothing to do already.Everything's settled.So we're going for half day.

Wsm:Going off half day?Who say you can go take half day?!

Me:Ermm...you did?

Wsm:No..i didnt say you can take half day.Fuck you understand!Dont make me come back and give you defaulters parade.

Me:yea sure..watever man

*i hang up*

We could only leave earliest at 1630hrs.So from lunch time i was like in my bunk playing final fantasy on my psp till about 1430hrs then i had it.I was like..fuck what he say i'm going home.So..i decided to go home(AWOL).lol.
So i text alyssa telling her i would be meeting her at her workplace earlier.I went home..bath...change then left for alvron.Alyssa was happy that i was wearing a short sleeve t-shirt..lol.She's always complaining i always wear long sleeve =.=
We had dinner together..LAKSA!!lol.Then before closing..we had a tickling match..which i won..Too bad baby!!!!Then it was time to go.We headed for the patrol station as Alyssa had craving for donuts.The donuts taste crappy though.Then its home sweet home for us.

Love You Alyssa <3

Beauty Of War

2008-07-12T08:58:00.000-07:00

Couple weeks back i was doing duty with this guy who everyone thought was an imbecile and damn "sotong" but i was quite impressed by him after actuali spend hours talking with him about war,religion and life and death.

Here's what we talk about.I'm just gonna touch on war today.
We actually had the same idea about war.People will always dream of "World Peace".
But i say..if there's war...let there be war..let people die.Inhumane.Yes i know.
Here's the reason why me and him agree there should be war.First thing first..for others to survive..another have to die.think of it this way..imagine there was no world war 2.(Remember this.World war 2 is two generations ago.when your grandparents were kids.)the nazi killed a few million jews.imagine this few million jews werent kill.their numbers world tripled.or perhaps just doubled.that goes for the other few million of people who died during WW2.

population on earth would be more than what it is now wouldnt it?and we're already an overpopulated planet with resources disappearing in a few thousand years time perhaps.if this people did not die during world war 2..more food and resources will be needed.demands for food,oil and materials would rise.more country would suffer shortages of food.

if this happen would you and i still be living in this so called "luxury".would we have enough food to feed us everyday or would we end up like kids in africa where food is even better then diamonds?

SO..if there's war..let there be war.let people die so we can live.inhumane..yes..but this is reality people.welcome to the real world :)

Fucking Words

2008-07-07T02:30:00.001-07:00

Have you ever wonder how strong words are?
Have you ever think which is stronger?Physical or verbal abuse.
From my point of view..words have been the starting point of all violence.
Iraq war..racial riots..MM Lee in court..musicians taken to court(eg.alice cooper,twisted sisters)FRIENDS AGAINST FRIENDS

I decided to talk about this cause of a recent personal experience where a certain someone whom i shall not mention cause i wanna settle this my way.(Stay where the fuck you are cunt.i'm comin for ya!)This cunt try to destroy somethin which i SINCERLY and painstakingly built I dont now what the fuck the cunt is planning to do but i'm gonna find out soon enough.

Anyway..it made me realise how just by saying something you can actually bring somebody down(it didnt happen to me tho)and sometimes its better then violence.For example..once i said something that actually made someone snap back to reality that she cant never rest in peace now(i'm fucking proud of what i did)

So how strong are words actually?what damage can it actually inflict on the weak?
Does words really contain permanence and power?Think about it.

And Yeah..Nothing Can Ever Bring Us Down Alyssa..No Matter How Strong The Pressure Is..We'll Stand Proud And Tall And Bring Those Motherfuckers Down On Their Fucking Knees.

Fucking FaceFuck Bored

2008-07-07T02:30:00.000-07:00

Anyone for pantun challenge?

Forever And One.

2008-07-06T08:14:00.000-07:00

I Almost Gave Up....
But I Didnt.
I Try My Luck....
You Told Me I Was In The Lead.
I Kept My Hopes Up....
And I'm Glad I Did.
Cause Now..
For Eternity You're Mine To Keep

I Love You <3

Lets See Now....

2008-07-05T09:21:00.000-07:00

A gig which i wasn't at all interested and the one which i almost didnt go if a certain someone hadnt agree to pay for me was actually the turning point of this life i had.And if it wasnt for another certain someone i wouldnt actually reach this point of happiness which i've always say to my friends that there is no such thing as happiness but only joy cause happiness doesnt last but now i got a reason to believe there is.And Yes i was being a pussy not to ask for her number personnally.I had to ask someone else for her number..and you know perfectly well who you are :P

And yes..i'm madly in love with her..."her" being Alyssa.With her..there's nothing i could ever ask for.Maybe perhaps a brand new razorback guitar...Anyway there's nothing i wouldnt do for her which i know most of you who know me well enough wouldnt believe cause i've always care about myself more then others but this time round its different...well just a little bit cause i couldnt care less bout you cunts except for her.But fuck it..i'm still the same me..i still stand on my believes,my rights and my pride.In love or not..I'm still fucking me.Sieg!!

Nothing Can Bring Us Down.ILY ALYSSA<3

The Purpose Of This Blog

2008-07-04T19:24:00.000-07:00

I wasn't quite interested in blogs in the 1st place cause i don't see the point of telling anyone or perhaps strangers about whats happening in this life of mine.But due to some events that happen recently,I've browse through quite a number of blogs which i realize shows how weak,stupid,ignorant some people are.Worst still..they're telling the world about it.Most people who's going to read this would say that "this people would have the right to talk about their feelings " or perhaps "they're just comfortable with their feelings".Most wont agree with me but who give a fuck about you.I think this people are weak.Telling others about how depress you are or whatsoeverfuck is as same as walking into a battle ground with no guns.okay..back to the point.When this people actually post about themselves in their blog and friends..or even strangers try to talk to them and in some cases "comfort" them and what surprises me is that they actually bother to read it so i realise that blogging is actually a good way to start a controversy.A good way to prove a point in life.Or maybe start a new believe and perhaps pollute the mind of the young with angst and sadistic desire.